"Be still and know that I am God."

Sometimes we can only be still before God. Speechless. Because of God’s sovereignty. Because of  His purposes, His plans. Because of His blessings.

Without words. That’s what I’ve been in recent weeks. 

I’m amazed at what God is doing but I don’t know what to say or how to say it.

I had thought that the years I worked in Africa were one chapter of my life and that I had turned the pages and now lived in a different chapter.

But I was mistaken. 

God is showing me, ever so slowly, that He was up to a lot more than I suspected, and that He still has loads of blessings for me as a direct result of the years I worked in Africa.

I want to find words to explain what God is doing, but I can’t. I feel like I am in a fog—that I can see only bits and pieces through a mist. 

I feel like dear old Habakkuk must have felt when God told him, “Look, and watch, and be utterly amazed. Be astounded! I am going to do something you wouldn’t believe even if you were told” (Habakkuk 1:5).

Habakkuk could only look and watch in utter amazement. I can only look and watch in utter amazement. Indeed, God is doing something I wouldn’t have believed even if He had told me ahead of time.

For now, I am still in the “Be still and know that I am God” stage (Psalm 46:10) but c’mon back next time. Between now and then, I’ll try to find words. All I can say for now is that God is so good.